Just A Little Note To Say…..

I have been having a little think about my blog recently, and what I want to achieve with it. I think, for me, this is more about enjoying writing again, and having a space that is all mine to collect my thoughts and feelings. I’ve never been very good at keeping a journal, despite always wanting to be, and buying multiple, just to have them all sit in a pile in the corner of my room, unused.

I want this to be a place that I can come back and read my thoughts and stories and possibly for you (the mythical reader) to be able to spend ten minutes of a Sunday afternoon (the day I intend to post) hearing my inner ramblings and what I would class as witty remarks.

I’ll give it a go, and at the end of the year, at least I can say I tried. I’ll do this for me.

In Response To My Goals For The Year 2015

In response to my goals for the year 2015…what was I thinking? I mean WHAT WAS I THINKING?

I know, I was thinking that I had an organised life, that I would stick to my goals and that I would keep on top of everything in my life. WRONG! It is now the end of March and although I have made some progress on these goals, I haven’t gone about it in the way that I wanted. I think, in respect of this, I can make a choice about how I want to view it. I can hang on to the vision I had in my head, or I can accept that as long as the end goal is the same, its the journey that matters. It may not be the journey I envisioned, but it makes life a little more interesting.

Goal one: Learn to drive! I’ve started this…hoooraaay! At least I am off to a good start. my lessons are going well and I can see the light at the end of the tunnel. I have my theory test booked and soon after I complete that I will be ready to book my actual real live scary driving test! ooohh-aaarrr! After then all that is left is for me to delve into the real world of adult responsibility and buy/insure a car! Oh Ehm Gee!!

Goal two: Get Healthier. Admittedly, I have slightly lapsed in this area…although I am now more in the mindset to rectify it. I have been walking a lot more recently and I am thinking of doing a charity run this time next year so I believe that I am now in what you ‘fit people’ call ‘training’. Now THAT is a scary thought! Food wise, I am a little embarrassed to say that I have not stuck to the wheat free thing, and I have not been limiting fat/sugar like I should be. Everything in moderation is great in theory….but in practice not so much.

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Goal three: Plan my future! Over the past few weeks I have inquired about/applied for every childcare related course under the sun. I have realised that I have gotten to a point in work where I feel that I am really good at my job (not to toot my own horn) and I enjoy it….but I am just bored! I need something to keep me occupied and to keep my mind working, and a qualification to validate my work seems like the way to go. I should hear back from the courses over the next couple of weeks, and I’ll take things from there. At least on the education front, things are looking up!

Goal four: Be more aware. Another goal that I have somehow (not intentionally) forgotten about. Since my last post in January, I have abandoned this blog. I want to make the excuse that it was because my laptop was down, but if I tried I could have set up my phone or Ipad to use, so I am only kidding myself! I have been reading on my phone but yearn for Sundays with tea and flowers and the pages of a proper book! (Another goal for myself there)…..and although she does not have a book in hand, this is this kind of wistful aesthetic that I yearn for….

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Goal five: Be more sociable. This is a hard one, and as I have previously mentioned, something that I struggle with. I need to know someone really exceptionally well to be comfortable around them, and I think when it comes down to it I trust only three people in my life. I can get along with almost everyone, and that is a quality that I pride myself on, but I will always have my guard up. I do need to work on putting myself out there more, but I think I need to be in the right frame of mind to do this.

Goal six: Explore more! Definitely something that I am going to try and focus on in the next few weeks. Especially with the weather getting nicer, I feel like it would be a great ‘me time’ activity.

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Long story short, I suppose, I am trying! I feel more motivated now after re-discovering my blog, and the next few weeks will be crucial in terms of happiness and getting things back on track. I’ve felt very stuck for a little over a year and I am now in the mindset to change that!